Everytime before exam, there's always something that interrupt my concentration. First, dad. Then, fire. Now, A.
Nowadays, I become more and more busy. Keeping myself continuosly busy in order to keep out the uncomfortable things. But I seemed to be fail huh?
Thinking of her doings, thinking about our reactions, thinking about my stupidness, thinking about our foolishness, thinking about...something already over but yet kept in my mind forever.
I'm thinking about something that I shouldn't think. I try to keep myself more and more busy to forget about it, but yet at night, I can't sleep and couldn't stop refreshing the whole incident. That suffers me a lot.
Whenever I think about it, my heart feel so terribly bitter and I'm feeling like crying but there's no tears coming out from my eyes. I stared blankly into the dark space, try to focus out the thoughts but it's always a failure.
I know it will carft in my heart/mind forever, should be? This kind of me, never/couldn't/hard to erase any of the memories that I remember. It leads benefits and also useless trouble. And I'll lead this to a dead end, soon, I hope.
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